I think I'm getting there

It's six thirty in the morning and I'm awake. I sleep most of the day so when I am alert on any level here I am. I am doing much better but it's such slow going. I don't think I would have bothered with the surgery if I had anticipated this much pain but it's mostly over now.

I feel badly because hubby and I missed so many parties. Tonight is another one but I'm really not up to it. I could force myself but then I won't know how it effects Christmas Eve and day. These are his friends but I can't get him to go without me.

I have been so lucky. He has been amazing. Not complaining about all the boring stuff. ie:
cooking, straightening up...laundry...shopping...boy I owe him big time...now that I think of it a
couple of weeks before Christmas is not the time to do stuff like this.

Last year he was sick Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. It was the first time in his life he didn't see his mother over Christmas. Maybe next year I'll just take things as they come.

With no tree and no presents Penny the pack rat has been on her good behavior. a few
missing socks and pens and things but she is lazy and hides everything in the same spot....behind the dry sink..although I am missing about four rolls of tape.

Well, the least I can do is put on the coffee...thanks for putting up with me....

Maun

What was I thinking?

On the eleventh of December I went into the hospital with the highest of expectations. Last
time I had the surgery for the right legs sciatica and it was not bad at all. Yes the back was sore
but when I put my right leg down...I was fine. This time I sunk right to the floor.


The pain was unimaginable. No drugs worked...morphine...demeral...anything they had I tried.
I was taking stuff every three hours but it only took the very top layer of pain away. I have never, ever experienced anything like this. The pain shoots down my leg and the toes on my left leg tingle...horrible...then the spasms start. I never slept more then an hour at a time and woke up ready to scream every time.

They finally sent me home late Sunday night with percodens and Valium for the spasms. I am
also taking a sleeping pill and sleeping in my own bed, I managed three hours.

I always thought I had a high tolerance to pain...so much for that. The Doctor says we will try
giving it a couple of weeks and then maybe more X rays and another MRI...he said it was too bad I had such an easy time the first time...and this is not uncommon...sure...anyway enough of me
belly aching just don't expect me around too much...you guys have always been so wonderful so a prayer or two can't hurt...love you all...Maun